What is this all about?

As I get older I have been finding myself drawn more and more to the community aspect of an actual church. While I consider myself very spiritual, I have never been particularly religious. Both my husband and I were raised in families that did not attend church regularly, and I still do not believe that you need to be in a church to have a strong relationship with God. However, I realize now that there is more to church than believing in God. Various events in my life have propelled me into a greater interaction with the Lord and I find myself going to Him for guidance on everything (from thanking Him for a green traffic light to begging for just a little more patience in dealing with my 2 yo). I am beginning to really read the Bible for the first time in my life and I want to record my feelings and insights as I go along. I am curious to see where this all leads me.

I am also hopeful that by recording my thoughts, my goals, and my progress I will be able to honestly evaluate my life. I want to improve upon myself and the lives of those around me. I think that seeing everything in black and white may propel me into a more truthful existence.

This all sounds very foreign coming from me, and as I am typing this I am resisting the urge to delete. This is just not how "I" talk, but as much as it seems strange it is still true. I do want these things for myself, I am not saying that everything will be perfect and Christian and as Jesus intended; but I am going to work on it. Also, I am not generally this serious. I imagine that this forum will be a lot more of my foibles than of my triumphs, but I am okay with that. I tend to learn more from my screw ups than anything else!

So anyways, this should be an interesting journey into the unknown. I would love some guidance from people who have been there before. And if no one ever reads this, it could just end up being a really interesting discourse between me, myself and I!